to hurt you

as i lay myself next to you, i stroke your coarse hair

your smell filled my lungs
your breath on my skin

i know i told you not to love me too much

coz it will hurt you if i leave

you snuggled closer
arms around me
wanting me, needing me

now i wish i never said that to you

my sight grew blurry from tears

coz i want you to love too much that it hurts you
if you leave.

and i held you tighter


tighter ...